Everything... everything has juz gone beyond me. I dun feel sad.. nor disappointed. I juz feel... "this-is-wat-we-call-life".
Parents, siblings, frens, good frens, Best frens even The loved one.. study, exam, money, even my own health..
Problems.... everywhere.
This is life ?????
Am i accepting the problems or am i "numbed" ???
Seriously.. I am not sad !
Thursday, November 22, 2007 @12:07:00 AM
Ah ger's diary
Wanna post a long post.. but... before i post... sumthing happened... now... i can't even write ady.. i can say.. my mood is TERRIBLE !!!!
I SWEAR ~~~~
I'll GET OUT FROM THIS HOUSE ON THE DAY OF MY 21ST BIRTHDAY !!!!
One year plus.... i'll count from today !!!!!
Thursday, November 15, 2007 @3:37:00 PM
Ah boy's diary
god..i am so dam piss now..jus fount out bout sum ppl..who jus wont facking grow up...men...puhlesss...look at ur ic again if u forget how old u are..my god..talk behind ppls back?say bad things bout others?and act..sarcastic?..men..i aso duno y we call these ppl frens?they are fcuking piss of shit if u ask me..they are so so not wat i call frens...duno how to cherish things..den blame others wen u lose it?haha..u noe wat..i belive in karma...and as far as i noe..i have done ntg wrong..but those who cant keep their dam mouth shut..ask ur mom to close it up for u..men..its not dat i wana scold..but..jus i am so dam piss now..u noe wat...sum1 told me...those pppl wana be childish..let them be..they wana act like a 3 yr old..let them be...if we scold them back..we are the same..and i agree...its true..but still..sum ppl are jus a fag..dam it..dun let me c all these ppl again..i see them once..i slap them back to china...hey..i might be skinny..but i sure pack a hell of a punch...lol...jkjk...d point is..fuck off..u noe..there's a fine line between annoying...and bein an asshole..continue wat u are doin..dun blame me for calling u all bitches...dam..this post reli..too..much..lol...dear wil kill me...but i dun give a dam..i hav held back my emotions for far too long....
btw...if u got anythin against me..or anythin dat has to do wif me..come tok to me..got balls tok..no balls do it in front of me?if ur wat u scold or say is right..fine..i have ntg to say..but babbling bout sumthin which is not true...and stil sound proud doin it..dun blame for fucking wif u...heed my warning..dun fuck wif me..especially behind my back.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007 @6:26:00 PM
Ah Ger's diary
Wanna blog about yesterday. But, after reading the chatterbox comment of someone's blog, i felt like...SCOLDING ppl !!!! I tell u.. this world... full of betrayers and... busybody. I mean, other ppl's stuff can u juz shut up.. ?? I dun care how u feel about other ppl but can u juz shut up ah ?? None of ur biz ok !!?? (Actually... i dunno whose blog is that.. juz i really duno y ppl leaving those stupid comment.) zzzzz.... i feel myself... very.... *ahem* lol... i dun scold ppl last time... wat's wrong with me.. sob sob.. sorry la.. cannot tahan after reading ma.. sorry lo.. To those innocent ppl i scolded.
Anyway, Yesterday went Yam cha with Joyce, wan ling and jo en. (nowadays yam cha with lotz ppl, haha..) We ate "ban min" at Kuchai lama. Since i no car, Jo En fetched me. We talked a lot, not like wat jo has said.. will be a weird lunch. Hahaha.. got Jo En there... where will weird. HAhahahahaa......
After lunch, I and Jo and ah boy went Pyramid buy Jay's lastest album. The album costs RM 59.9 in Popular. So so $. Lol... So we went to Speedy to check out the price. It's only 49.90. 10 bucks cheaper man.. lol... so.. DUN GO POPULAR and buy that album. =p (popular pls dun sue me... =p )
After album shopping we went "walk walk". Lol.. walked till my legs also numb ady... (ppl waering heels ah.. T.T) We bought McFlurry (my fav ice-cream) while walking without destination. Oh ya.. we met A LOT chs ppl.. Lol.. Luckily yesterday i was not le-fe like how usually i went pyramid. Haha.. I met my lecturer too !!
Then we went Old Town Kopitiam. Lol.. jo en was so "sui" la yesterday. Haha.. whenever there's a traffic light, it sure turned to red. Then met plenty of dumb drivers and she horn-ed those ppl dunno how many times. lol.. Before coming out she dunno how bang her house's new tiles. Haha... then at the Kopitiam, when we order "cham", ah boy's drinks taste so good... but hers... hahahahaha..... requested to change a new one but still taste so so bad. Haha.... so BITTER !!! Haha... But luckily after that we talked to a chinese, she understand wat we meant (finally!) then she changed a normal, nice "cham" for Jo en. Haha.. jo.. yesterday juz now ur day la.. =p
AT night i suppose to back got coll and attend EDC class. BUt.. once i sit at the foyer waiting for other frens to reach, i feel.. so so so.. lazy to go for class. End up... everyone sit with me.. and.. got influenced by me.. and.. NO ONE GO TO CLASS. Haha... got la.. only one hardworking one.. Tsen li.. i mentioned her a few post before. Haha.. We end up go to pyramid again (with ah boy's car) to watch Balls of Fury. We used 10 mins to go from coll till sit in the cinema. Lol.. so RUSH~~
Anyway, that movie.. juz so.. LAME !!! Lol.. Keep laughing only. But, overall.. i feel it's ok only la.. maybe.. 6.5/10 ??? Haha... cause a bit too lame ! lol..
As for today, sleep till 2pm again. cause no class and NO CAR (again !) to go college study. Sigh.... Daddy said he'll need my car for another 3 days. Shit la.. really trapped at home. Nvm, i'll either ask parents fetch me or.. find whoever can pity me and fetch me. Haha.. i got a lot chocolate from langkawi (thx Sook li who juz went to langkawi). I asked her to buy Agnes Mint chocolate for me. Yummy yummy ~~~ so nice.. anyone want some ?? Hahaha... =p
Well, that's all for today lo.. i should finish up my F7 hw ady.. Bye bye~~~
@2:16:00 AM
Ah ger's dairy
No car = no more freedom. Sigh... I'm Trapped.. (half grounded..) Quite tired today. Went toooooo many places.. (including went to pyramid for twice in a day). Juz bathed.. at 2.15am. O.o And.. kinda no mood... sumthing happened to Ah boy and ah ger.. but i also dunno wat is it... both being so cold. Sigh.. so, will blog about today next time. Hopefully tomolo i'll find my mood back. Bye~~
** Din study for 2 days ady. Guilty !!!
Tuesday, November 13, 2007 @12:32:00 AM
Ah ger's diary
From now on muz write the "title" before posting. Haha.. really dunno who is posting la.. Lol.. Well, today i got quite a lot to "say". Firstly, I SLEPT 13 HOURS yesterday !!! That's y i din post. I slept from 12am to 1pm. Haha... It's the first time i sleep before 2, since.. i think about half a year ago. Ppl like me can sleep before 2am. Wah.. miracle !! Haha.. I was really really exhausted la.. 2 days (weekend sumore) from 8am to 7pm sat in hall writing... how tiring.... especially waking up at 7am. *Ah boy 1st day EDC ady so tired... haha... i 2nd day only "lam". Haha... i'm stronger. =p kidding la.. XD
Early in the morning (actually ady 2pm.. for me is early ok ?!!! =p), my mum said sumthing which i really dun like. Ruined my day only.. ish... !!! Skip that part first.. As mention in ah boy's post, i went out yam cha with Hui Shurn today, with Yanru also. Hui Shurn, my friend since standard 1. Then went to high school together. Her mum and my mum used to be good frens also.. That's y.. we counted as good frens also la.. lol.. I manage to get in Catholic also becos of Hui Shurn's mum. She dunno ask which Datuk sign the approval form then i got into Catholic with her daughter. Lol.. Thanks a lot Aunty k !!! I really enjoyed my life in Catholic !!
We ate in Secret Recipe at Citrus Park, and we talked a lot. Wah.. she ah.. damn CHUNT !! Lol.. Left catholic (went to study in Negeri Sembilan) since form 4, but.. she knew EVERYTHING happened in Catholic. Who pak tuo with who.. who break up with who.. Where are these ppl now... She knows !!! Lol.. Supposingly i and Yanru should "update" her about Catholic but end up we both are the one who.. "Really ah ???!!! Is it ??? Got meh ??? Wah..... " Really... sweat. I told her.. ur Antenna really long ah.. She said.. yalar.. of course. Who i am oh.. =.='' salute her la.. haha..
After all the eating and chit-chatting.. we went to "walk walk". Lol.. then i fetch Shurn to her mum's fren's house (cos her mum there) then i fetch Ru to central. Then i drove back to Coll.. got class at night. SIEN~~~ Oh ya.. i met Kean ho !!!! Lol.. saw him drove thru me.. hahaha... He looks so so blur... haha.... kean ho... u studied too much la.. relax bit !!! haha.. Good luck anyway.. in ur STPM.
Now, back to the main purpose i wanna blog today. MY MUM !!! Ish... ruined my good day today. Before i wanna go out this afternoon, i found out my car.. gone. So, i called my mum to come back. (she's in office, which only 3 mins from my house if drive) She knows i need to go out one lo.. so many car (ok la.. 2 only.. but still.... ) dun drive.. muz use my car. Sigh.. anyway, i called her.. then she said she's coming back. So.. i waited her in the living room.. for HALF AN HOUR !!! OMG... i was late cos Shurn said meet at 3 and it's 2.45 when i called my mum 2nd time. She said.. she is buying chicken rice..... =.=''
Fine. I'm ok with that. The worse part is.. when i was fetching her back to her office, she start lecturing me. U know wat she said ?? I told her i'm going out yam cha with shurn at OUG. then she...
Mum: Go OUG ?? Y she suddenly ask u go yam cha ??
Me : Very long din see each other ma.. yam cha and meet up la..
Mum : U now very free meh ?? go so far yam cha ?? Mustn't u go ?? Tell her cannot, cannot la ?
Me : ........
Mum : Dun tell me u gonna fetch her and Yanru.
Me : i won't la.. they go themselves. (i lied la.. of course.. see the way she asked and so mg song i fetch them like that..)
Mum : Ask them come Puchong cannot la.. ask u go yam cha still ask u go their place.
Me : Shurn live in Subang ok ???!!!
Mum : But yanru live in OUG.
ME : .....................................................................................
SEE !!!!!! Gek or not... Ish... This is my mum... She juz so.. so.. so... SELFISH !! wat's wrong with her la... then at night... another "fight" between us. she suddenly came in my room (with the Osim massage belt around her waist) then start lecturing me. That time i juz came back from coll and bathed. I was putting on my toner and moisturizer. She then start...
Mum : Wat are u putting on ur face ? Always stand in front of mirror only. (Hello ?? juz bathed.. i should stand in the kitchen is it ?? )
Me : Toner.
Mum : Y ah u keep putting things on ur face har ?? u know u now very "small" only ah.. only 19.. and i see u sumtimes make up to coll.. Now so "small" ady fat hao.. u still got 40 years to put things on ur face one ah... u think ur face can stand it ah... !@#$%^&*
Me :.....................
I was juz putting on TONER la !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wat's wrong with her today !!! ish..... I gek till dinner juz ate white rice and plain vege. =.='' Eat also no appetite ady. Sigh... This is my FAMILY !!!!
AHHHHHHHH !!! Gek hei ah !!! i better off now. Din manage to study today. Charm.. left 20 days only. Sigh... Ciao !!!
** Ah boy, no one wanna fight for ur right of this blog. =p and.. all Korean songs meh. Oh ya, y ur date... month/day/year one... shouldn't it be day first ??? I saw those in US one also type like that (yiap pin also).. am i wrong ??? O.o i feel so. uncomfortable with... it.. hahahha.. dunno y. =p
Sunday, November 11, 2007 @12:59:00 PM
11/7/07-1230pm
to ah ger..its OUR blog..lol..i jus lazy and no time post anymore..and..reli..ders ntg much to post..i mean..i wake up at 9...eat my breakfast..go back to sleep till 11..den bath..den go coll to study..bout 7 den go back..or go..ahem..pak toh?lol...jkjk..went home la duh...lol..dats how my life is for d past few days...eat sleep study...eat sleep study..like wtf men...this is life?haiz..wat to do..i was stupid enof to sign up for this stupid acca course...and thus..goes my life too...=.=..haiz..
12/7/07-7 pm
dat was ystd...now..today...first time attending edc classes..reli dam tiring..and..i am goin stay in coll til 10 summor..lol..jus to let u noe..i've been in coll since 8 am..lol..today got back my mock results..i failed..as expected..i would have felt real fish and stupid..if not for...another 70 ppl who aso fail wif me..haha...ok ok..i am not mean ok..its not dat i wan see others fail..i reli dun..jus..better den i alone fail right..den..sure kena diao gao gao by rozi d...haiz...dear is in class now..and..i am suppose to finish up my hw..but...if i dun post..i am goin to lose my right as owner of this blog..hmmp...
i am sure dear wil fill in bout goin out wif hui shurn and ru jus now...and..she told me...dat hui shurn told her dat...sum1 told hui shurn...dat..quote.."GOT 1 GUY CALL KIAN SOON AH ALWAYS DISTURB AND BULI U WAN RIGHT?NOW STIL GOT AH?"..... i reli am...speechless...ok ok..i noe i was mean to dear in high school..in fact..to every1 wen i was in high school and prim school..i am a jerk..lol..i agree la...but..ppl change u noe..lol..well..ppl say wat they wana say..and hear wat they wana hear..cant do anythin la..:)...i reli have to be off doin hw d..but..goin put up songs on my blog first..gona put a playlist..hmm..mostly korean songs..lol..dats all for now..wil post more..
@12:11:00 AM
Okay.. this blog is officially mine. Lol.. always i post only.. ah boy din post one. Cheh.. so... now.. this blog officially mine !!! =p
Today, my hand nearly paralyze. O.o Keep writing for hours din stop. Ok la.. we did hav our lunch break in the afternoon.. but still.. from 9 am to 7 pm keep writing ! Everyone of us really can't FEEL our hand after class. Lol.. even our lecturer who read the answer for us also getting blur. Keep reading the wrong line from her answer sheets and 150++ of us juz "fooled" by her again and again. But luckily she is a nice lecturer. Still tells jokes and being really LAME.
Not like my audit lecturer, really make EVERYONE of us sleep in class ( even we should be writing also ). Stay in her class for one day (10 hours) make me feel so so proud of myself that i can keep myself awake. Haha.. although i ponteng 1 day out of 3 days. Lol.. Tomolo still got another 11 hours of financial revision class like today. Sob... really de-motivated la... sigh.... SUNDAY !! Eh.. i suddenly thought of this... "every sunday in sunway." Hahahaha..... wah, sound so nice. *eyebrow raising..*
Anyway, today wat happened to KL ??? That SLY asked me read newspaper but i really lazy. Lol.. I dun read newspaper one. Neither English nor Chinese. Ok la, maybe Chinese i still can read, but English.. i think 10 words i can't read 2 words. >.< Terrible me. Sob sob.. so..... wat happened in KL wo... muz find out... by asking ppl. =p hahhaa.... My sister juz found a nice video. With all Disney Prince and princess inside. Remind me of all our childhood movies. Haha.. and very sweet also. Hehe.. I love the song too, from Avril Lavigne. (Did i spell wrongly ?? okay.. watever.. everyone knows i seldom listen to English songs.)
Here's the video. Haha..
Saturday, November 10, 2007 @12:38:00 AM
OMG~~ my cousin going to Paris and London for vacation after her 1st week of working life in Dublin(Ireland) !!! How nice it is... O.o Juz the 3rd day of her work.. she start applying for leave, since she's having 11 days of annual leave due to Feb, i think. It's...... awesome !!! Only 55 Euro for the air ticket. So.. cheap !!! Read her blog everyday since last week she reached Dublin, she's really enjoying there. Make me so envy..... Grr.... Lol.. She did upload some photos, so.... pretty ! sigh....
Yesterday i have read quite a few of my frens' blogs who have left M'sia for studies. UK la.. US la.. Aust la.. Singapore la.. Sob sob.. poor me still in M'sia, little Puchong here posting about how everyone out there enjoying their life. Sad case ! Nvm, as my mum said, it will be my turn after few years. =p She said 2 years.. but i think a bit too fast. Haha.. i'm not leaving once i graduate. I guess. I dun think i'm that independent yet.. especially no working experience at all. If study.. OF COURSE i dun mind flying TOMOLO !! haha... anyone wanna pay for me ??? O.o lol.. *daydreaming..*
Today, nothing special happened.. except, mummy fetch me to coll and back from coll. Cause no car.. lol.. dunno happy or sad. no comment. =.='' And, i really should study now. Today EDC & EFC class, i totally blur while Tsen li ( my classmate, sitting beside me today) was like so pro, keep answering lecturer's questions and completing past year question without "thinking" ( she seems like no need to think to me la.. cause.. i am so lost till i keep PEEP her answers and i juz copy. T.T this show how charm i am... ) Yes.. Yes.. study pls.. wanxin ! GO STUDY !!!!
Well, let me finish this post.. ok ??? ~okay~
Tomolo still having EDC & EFC class. From 9 to... dunno when. Means i have to wake up by 8. O.o Omg ~~ i dun want !!! Ask me to wake up early (my"early" is before 12.. hahahah.. ) juz like asking me to kill a cockroach. Hahaha.... =p
k la.. muz off now. Today muz sleep before 2. Can i ??? O.o I have been sleeping at 5/6 am everyday since Jun. OMG~~~ =X
Friday, November 9, 2007 @2:03:00 AM
I should not posting here... I should be studying now. But, nah.... nvm la.. relax awhile ( i've been reading ppl's blog for almost 2 hours.. yea.. this is AWHILE for me. =p) Wanna post a lot a lot ALOT of stuff.. but really dun hav the time and most important.. the MOOD.
Less than 1 month to my Exam.. But, y i dun feel anything ?? Still in my holiday mood. Duno why this semester.. i really like having holiday EVERYDAY. Lol.. So.. daddy, mummy... I duno wat will happen to my final this time. X(
Went for Halloween celebration with frens on Halloween night. Went to The curve and had our dinner at TGI. So damn expensive although i was sharing with dear. Each of us paying 30 bucks.. means.. 60 for both of us. O.o 1 appetizer, 1 main course, 1 dessert and 2 drinks cost us 60 bucks. But, since the deco there so special.. with all the waiters and waitresses there wearing so called "custom", i think.. it's worth la.. hor ??? I really love their dressing.. so.... WOW !! haha... next time should upload some pic here since Ashley still haven send me those photos.
Erm... that's too many things happened.. i also duno wat to post.. and.. getting lazy to type. =p It's 3 now.. i'm bit sleepy.. tomolo still got night class.. sienzzzzzzzzzzz..................
Oh ya... today i got BLUE turtle from dear !!! Thank u dear... hehe.. now whole family are gathered. Hahaha.... so cute la... =p Really.... thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u thank u !!!!! *muakz* hahaha.... And, sorry... today.. i know i bit rude.. >.< but.. really cannot help it la. But u still can cheer me up although i was having that terrible mood. haha.. *thumbs up*
Well, books... notes... and.. BED... here i come !! BED BED BED BED~~~~~ *yawn*